Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Well, puke

Sometimes being a kid is hard.
Big thanks for Babymama taking off of work yesterday and being flexible today to make sure that BOTH of my little sickies have their mommy around to love them and make them feel better. You really are the best around.

Sunday, February 23, 2014


Tonight was a lot of fun. My mom had my sister and 2/3 of her kids with her and brought dinner over to share with the kids and me. 

And Erin- my favorite part was being able to share some genuine laughs with you. 

As much as I share mom's feelings about wishing you were living closer again, I can tell you are happy and that makes me happy for you. Your kids are still such sweet, beautiful treasures and as limited as our time together is these days, it is very special to me to have it...even in small doses. 

Looking forward to seeing you guys again. 

Tuesday, February 18, 2014


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This is ME SMILING, a set on Flickr.
Insomnia has me reflecting and respecting what a blessed life I have lived.

And for my mother: I DO smile quite often ;)

Monday, February 17, 2014

Any minute now, my ship is coming in...I keep checking the horizon...and I'll check my machine, it's sure to be that call. It's gonna happen soon...soon...oh so very soon. It's just that times are lean. 

And you say; "Be still my love, open up your heart, let the light shine in."

Don't you understand, I already have a plan. 

I'm waiting for my real life to begin. 

-Colin Hay

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Friday, February 14, 2014


Is, in fact, epic...

...and it has only just begun. Valentine's Day, it turns out, is pretty beautiful. And I have a date with the prettiest and sweetest girl on the West Coast, probably the lower 48, and quite possibly the Western Hemisphere tonight.

It's on.

I've already made her squeal once today with a teaser valentine and some roses. She blushed and screamed a little bit.

I am in Heaven.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Etc, etc, etc...

These kids

Are kind and generous and sensitive and untainted by the weak or petty behavior of those around them. They are observant and introspective and honest with me always. 

We are enjoying this life together. It's an amazing trip. Especially lately. This house has been full of joy and ...well, to be honest... Evolution. 

That's what it is. 

Monday, February 10, 2014


There are beautiful people and ideas and things happening in this world every day.

To be a part of any of them, even as fleeting as certain beauty might be, is a gift.

To feel the rush and excitement of a new opportunity or possibility is what gives life such sweet flavor.

To be alive is amazing.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

2.9.14 - Local Art Scene Get's Blogger's Attention!

Bathed in Sunshine, Covered in Dust. 

This opening at the Holland project, coupled with an artist and audience interactive dialogue, was a great step towards the realization of Reno's up and coming art scene. Contemporaries of our area in several mediums, sharing some amazing pieces, and interactive performance. A few of the highlights included Kaitlyn Bryson, Ahren Hertel, Jaxon Northon, Omar Allen Pierce, and several others, who's names, unfortunately, escape me right this second. 

But is was an honor and a privilege to be able to witness these amazingly talented people in the same place at the same time, and I feel so lucky to have been there to celebrate with them on what I now understand is quite a cool accomplishment. It has inspired me to step up my game in support of the local arts. I feel privileged to be able to do so. 

Saturday, February 8, 2014

A Big Year

It means different things to different people. 

It means a huge stack of them to me and they are all moving in the right direction. 

Feeling blessed, overwhelmed and somehow motivated this morning. 

Friday, February 7, 2014


Last night the kids took off on a plane with their grandmother, headed to Southern California. Their cousin, Cori, is playing softball in Irvine at Concordia, and they got to go down and visit her, as well as her sister who is also living in the sunshine state. Together with their aunt, all of them are going to spend some fun times together, capped off with a trip to the Magic Kingdom!

Since our last trip to Disneyland almost 3 years ago, the kids have been socking away their dough for the next time we could head down. They have kept a Mickey Mouse shaped piggy bank in Sean's room, and they have done chores, saved birthday money, and been diligent about putting away as much as they could. And this whole time, for every dollar they put in, I matched it and doubled the investment so that it would add up to something.

So when the offer to go was presented, and I knew I couldn't be a part of this journey with them, I was a little sad, but also so thrilled for them that they finally got to go again. And I asked them if they thought they should use their savings for this trip, since it is in fact exactly what they were saving up for. They said absolutely, and so we pulled the jar out to the living room and emptied it out. As Sean and Ireland separated out all the money and stacked it up, they came to the conclusion that there was $171 in bills, and a buck or so in loose coin. Not bad...I was actually impressed.

So I said, "When you get to Disneyland, you give this money to your grandmother and tell her that you are buying your own passes." They understood.

Dropping them off at school yesterday, and saying goodbye knowing they would be leaving early from school to the airport, and I wouldn't see them until next week, I was kissing and loving on them a little extra, when Sean said,

"Oh, yeah, DAD!?"


"So yesterday I went online to the Disney website, and gave my mom the money and had her buy both of the tickets and guess how much they cost?"

"How much?"


He was absolutely thrilled. No joke, they had saved up the exact amount, to the DOLLAR, of the cost of their passes, and if that isn't some kind of grand design, then I don't know what is. Perfect marker for me to realize that I am on track with some little aspect of my life. And I am so proud of those kids...they are seriously so awesome, and they get to have this awesome trip, and know that they actually worked hard to save up and make it happen too!! A great lesson in responsibility, I think, and they truly appreciate everything they have.

I am blessed.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave. "

Tuesday, February 4, 2014


Sitting in a dry meeting and thinking back to an hour ago. Sean on the court at the Boys and Girls club...running point. Pulls up from 3-point land and squares to the hoop and drops a bomb. I haven't heard the "crowd" in the gym until that moment. They were all thinking the same thing in that moment. As was I...this kid is good. 

Thanks, don't know this but you really made my week tonight with that shot. 

Monday, February 3, 2014



Notes on a conversation I had today...worth putting to the written word, and checking back on from time to time.

You're on your own. Figure out what you want out of life, and then out of every situation.

Give yourself permission to process and also to NOT act...(it's important for me right now to know that not taking action is often more powerful than taking it.)

Challenge yourself and the way you think, and the ideas that have put you into a cyclical event.

I'm looking to stick a spoke in the front wheel, launch over the handlebars, and start flying.

Sounds like a game plan.

Back to work.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

On the piano

For the first time in my life I am free to play whatever I want on the piano as loud as I want and as repetitively as I like for as long as I want. Not that anyone around me would have EVER discouraged my practice in such a fashion, but I am dreadfully aware of how testing the repetition of the same few chords or phrases over and over and over and over and over again can create stress in the environment for everyone except the person playing it. Or how the mistakes in the songs can stand out and become humbling and inhibiting, if I think for a second that they are spoiling the experience, even though it is not supposed to be a performance, but rather an introspective time of practice and reflection.  And having grown up in a house of 6, I learned that it was all about having "practice time" when it was up to me to do whatever I wanted, and nobody could really say a thing...or more importantly, I wouldn't feel bad about annoying the heck out of everyone around me. I tend to be a little sensitive to stuff like that. In this day and age, that problem is of course partially solved by an 88-key, fully weighted synthesizer, with headphones and some pretty good piano sounds.

But let's be honest here...there is absolutely NOTHING like the sound of the piano, echoing through a house, bouncing off of the walls, reverberating in the air when those chords and phrases come together, after hours of practice, and thought and feeling and all at once that song finally HITS, and it just feels like something might actually be coming out of me that I like. When I figure out something I was working hard to learn, or when I stretch the boundaries of my melancholy deep and dark enough to find new places in my mind that can be expressed intentionally on those keys. It's a pretty liberating experience. 

And being alone right now I have found a lot of these moments, and I am grateful for them. 

This is one of those silver lining things. This is the momentum I am working on right now. 

This is life. 

Saturday, February 1, 2014


This month is all about gaining momentum. 

And coffee in everything.